The Dirty Bouquet

played in the Golden hour.  6:00 pm. I really enjoyed it. I discovered something I never knew.   ~brown eyes~  xoxo  Farrah

I went in the summer 2025. Weather perfect, Broadway? happened....this trip is a must every year from now on. Photo post to come soon.  xoxo ~ Farrah Artwork shown by Farrah, acrylic on canvas 35x37 in approx. *available for purchase

 

    2006.  Previously, I was introduced to the idea of Pandora's Box via an experience I had with someone from high-school.  That time it was music.  I was a slight music aficionado due to my older sister's boyfriend. He had opened up our world to music from the east coast.  A total split from what we were raised listening to in a household ran by a devout Christian.  Imagine my siblings and I in Houston knocking our rides with the Wu-Tang clan and the likes in the 90's.  Oddballs.  But this experience with music through that person, my old high-school friend, introduced me to the classics. Black classics.  The soundtrack of my life from 2001-2006 had been Minnie Riperton, Jeffrey Osbourne, The Commodores (Zoom is my favorite) and more.  And also a soundtrack that led me to the actual box.  To me music and history are undeniably intertwined and when I opened this box.  I was taken back to the foundation of it all through w...

  White sheets are my love language The morning thought 💭 I wanted to type... I erased (it was funny 🤷🏾‍♀️) but  one thing I know about me...I have the power to will a reality that I really don't want to happen just by thinking or saying.  my heart can't handle that. I'll chill.   just go with the photo caption. xoxo - Flynn

 True story...and I should have typed "Vodou" instead.  Anyway, more on this later in an upcoming blog. 

  I don’t stay bottom   Spirit gave me instructions today > Blue, orange  for the monarch butterfly and the bug seen this am during a morning smk sesh in my backyard.   Both floated near by, in rhythm. First the monarch and then the unknown bug.    What struck me the most was how blue that damn bug was.    I watched it intensely to make sure it wouldn’t attack. Lol.   Both however… not staying bottom.  They floated...flew. Something I've been wishing i could do lately. Spirit spoke and hinted at “intuition” . Why? What do I mean?   I've been consulting ChatGPT lately because my soul has been disturbed after searching for information/confirmation my brain just can't seem to let go of surrounding someone. I found it.  I was led by intuition.  The info hurt and swelled in me like raging fire. It had to be revealed I guess. It caused tears, confusion...resentment towards the one true “essence”, Elohim . And then, as the bl...

  I'm learning that what appears to be two equal sides can in fact be an illusion.  Congruency is a fallacy?  The "agreement" is...one-sided? Yes.  So, this is my achilles heel.  I enter into situations that I believe to be genuine and usually end up in defeat.  They say there is a lesson in one's mistakes and I do agree but that typically leads to self-isolation for me. I never realize just how naive I am until it occurs.  It occurred recently with several people, strangers, loved ones and I've been isolating now for a year plus.  And while I do miss these people deeply, besides the awareness here's what else I've learned and what I'm most proud of... My "detach" game? Oh, it's elite. But, I hate playing it. I really adore the thought of getting to know, trust, indulge, and love.  Yet all of these things as I'm learning are actually weaknesses? On what planet can one actually align and truly trust that they are valued/seen? 

I took this photo of this man on a ride to work on Metro one morning. I couldn't believe this B was facing me. I was pissed.  I did chuckle a little though at his audacity. Now on to it. Health Anxiety...I have it.  Okay, I'm not going to put THAT into the atmosphere...I had it.  Because of what I perceived was extreme weight loss.  I recently began working out again after two months of monitoring myself because of it.  and by monitoring myself, I mean doing absolutely nothing. Waking up and living, no working out, eating whatever just to try and gain weight.   Just when I think i've gained a few pounds the next day, gone.  kept smkng / drinking and even began eating meat to "see"...nothing. The only thing that relieved me a little was remembering the doctor's visit I had in early when I registered at my current weight with clothes on. That means I would have been less naked right?  Does that make sense? so essentially, I've gained? I even h...

I love blogging...I'm not a writer though.  I'm a 40+ woman with roots in the north and south. Deep. I've seen and see a lot. Even things that are unseen. Kept hidden, buried, forgotten.  I call myself an artist but the world doesn't see it so I now believe that I've misunderstood the very definition. This is a memento to myself and/or to those who keep wild thoughts but are afraid to express them and would rather drown in mine.  I have advice/tips too though but use or take at your own risk.  welcome to the dirty side of what I wanted to remain a beautiful one.  I can hide here and subsequently just...be.  xoxo - F PS: I'm tired of social media...I just learned that all are in fact dating apps? If true...then I'll be here for a while. by here, this blog.