I Don't Stay Bottom

 

I don’t stay bottom 

Spirit gave me instructions today > Blue, orange 

for the monarch butterfly and the bug seen this am during a morning smk sesh in my backyard. 

Both floated near by, in rhythm. First the monarch and then the unknown bug.  

What struck me the most was how blue that damn bug was.  

I watched it intensely to make sure it wouldn’t attack. Lol. 

Both however…not staying bottom.  They floated...flew. Something I've been wishing i could do lately.

Spirit spoke and hinted at “intuition”.

Why? What do I mean? 

I've been consulting ChatGPT lately because my soul has been disturbed after searching for information/confirmation my brain just can't seem to let go of surrounding someone. I found it. I was led by intuition. The info hurt and swelled in me like raging fire. It had to be revealed I guess.

It caused tears, confusion...resentment towards the one true “essence”, Elohim.

And then, as the blue bug landed, again Spirit spoke. 

“Sketch", release. 

A love I put on pause in order to assert my artistry in other ways for a while to impress? Confirmation to myself? 
But why tho. 

The instructions were to sketch abstractly, madly, intuitively with no purpose 'cept to expand, rinse, and to extinguish the billowing fire inside.

Confirmation to create “this/these” received by the soothing, cool brush of the wind, felt on my forearm, pocketed on my neck and face. 

I gave repeated “thanks” to Spirit, the Essence, and then commenced. 

Xoxo, F.Lynn

"Float" - 24x30 inch, charcoal / spray paint on paper

"Fire Inside" - 24x30 inches, charcoal, acrylic on paper

"Struggle Flight" - 24x30 inches, charcoal and acrylic paint on paper

Fire Inside II - 24x24 inches, acrylic paint/charcoal on paper. 

random studio shot

all hung in glory minus 1

Session Details:
Studio Music: Chaka Khan, titles : Everywhere, Everlasting Love, Love of a Lifetime
Materials used: Charcoal powder, graphite, acrylic paint, spray paint 

PS:  I don't stay bottom, the title, the phrase? 

Courtesy of Joi, the singer (pictured), my Aquarius sister, 

A strong female singer from the early nineties, Atlanta / Tennessee royalty, the ex of Big Gipp (Goodie Mob).  A pioneer for avant-garde female vocalists we see today.  

you see...

it was a lyric from a song she sang, one I love entitled, Techno Pimp. 

She loved "Gipp" but he left anyway.

they never seem to stay.